Monday, October 13, 2008

Okay, so.

I think I'll be able to manage my time a bit better this week. I need to at least try. No neglecting this blog when I have ideas, no guest blogging elsewhere unless something awesome happens that deserves documentation.

How many times in your life have you met people that you're just naturally comfortable knowing? For a while, it seems like you try to find any excuse to see them because things ARE so easy, even not being "social" and just hanging around. It can easily lead to "new friend burnout" if you aren't careful.

V. and I tried to be careful, as did Lady J., but it wasn't long before J. and I stopped trying. I really didn't mean to see the woman every single day of the week past. I certainly didn't expect to sleep with her for all of them, either; in fact, one or two nights I tried to make platonic plans or to expressly have no plans at all. It just didn't work. Looking back, I'm glad it didn't.

Unfortunately, I think my attitude is changing slightly. I can feel myself not getting possessive, but anticipatory and expectant. I consider the possibility of hearing "no" a little less each day, and that's not good. I hope to adjust - I need to move away from the realm of expectancy and back to the realm of hope. Things are better there, more special.

Wish me luck.

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